
God brings men into deep waters, not to drown them, but to cleanse them—James Aughey
Off watch in the aft cabin of White Dove, I awoke abruptly to footsteps overhead, snapping sails, and lines flogging. The sailboat heeled sharply to starboard as I struggled to sit up. My watch read 0030. I’d only slept for 45 minutes. Grrr…I yelled to my husband on deck, “What on earth is going on out there?” No response. Reluctantly I climbed off the cozy bunk and peered out the companionway. Jerry lunged across the cockpit, slicing the top of his hand open. Blood mixed with rain as he plopped down. “Don’t know what’s wrong, but can’t get the boat to steer.” He pulled the tiller toward him, then away. “There’s nothing there!” We gazed at each other, bewildered. It didn’t make sense. We had replaced the wheel with a tiller so there would be no cable to break and had replaced our spade rudder with a new one just 18 months ago. Jerry shone the flashlight on the tiller head and upper rudder post it connected to. All looked normal. Using a boat-hook, he felt around beneath the stern. There was only empty space where the rudder should have been. How had it sheared off? It was time to pray.
Our crossing to New Zealand from the Ha’apai Group in Tonga had begun on October 27, 1999. The first 3 days were wet and rolling with 25-35 knot winds and 9-foot swells crashing onto the beam. After listening to daily weather reports, we chose to stop at North Minerva Reef to wait out the low that was expected to hit NZ’s North Island on November 3rd. The 2-3 foot high coral ring with narrow opening was a mid-ocean oasis. It was surreal, cocooned in the calm bay while wind howled and waves pounded the exterior reef. Yachts that had continued on experienced 30-50 knot winds with 15-foot seas. No thank you!

Minerva Reef—Lobster hunting with friends
On November 4th, with a good weather window predicted, we resumed passage in company with friends, John and Aleta aboard Holding Pattern. Pleasant sailing winds ranged from 10-20 knots from the NE-ENE. Within 4 days we were 50 miles ahead of HP, averaging a speed of 6 knots, and due to arrive in Opua, Bay of Islands, before dark the next evening—one day ahead of the next forcasted low. Right on target until now. Just after midnight we suddenly faced an enormous problem. We sprang into action, adjusting sails until until the boat was heaved to. This slowed the violent lurching so we could go below and use the VHF to notify vessels in the immediate area to be on guard for us. Next, calling Taupo Radio on the ham radio, we reported our status. After changing into warm clothes and bandaging Jerry’s hand, we fortified ourselves with hot chocolate and formulated a plan while awaiting dawn.
At first light we dragged out 400-feet of anchor rope and deployed it off the stern as a warp to help with steerage, but with negligible results. Jerry took down the spinnaker pole and tightly lashed 2 opposing 12-inch by 20-inch sheets of plywood to the end of it with a spare halyard. With special hardware he secured it to the frame of our Monitor steering vane. All of this took hours and drained energy, especially wrestling the pole out over the stern. Its success was temporary as the fitting eventually twisted loose from the windvane frame. As the boat pitched violently about, we used remaining strength to haul the now water-filled pole back aboard. Thoroughly exhausted, we agreed it was time to stabilize WD, and deployed our 8-foot-diameter ParaTech sea anchor.

Our masthead strobe light flashed its warning as we slept fitfully through a falling barometer and deteriorating weather. In the early hours of November 10th Jerry and I gathered tools and materials after consulting with John from HP by radio. Amidst intermittent showers and Force 8 (35 knot) winds, we built an emergency rudder to bolt onto the servo oar of the Monitor. The dinette table was converted into a workbench. As the sawdust flew, our spirits rose. For the final shaping with the belt sander , I suggested that Jerry take the paddle into the cockpit. Poor guy had to straddle it like a bucking bronco, wearing a snorkeling mask to keep rain and sawdust out of his eyes. What a sight!

As I attempted to clean up the mess below, my husband got us underway with our new rudder. With a great sigh of relief we found it working properly and set a new course for NZ, experimenting with different sail and motor combinations until steering was balanced. We resecured the spinnaker pole (with paddle) halfway off the stern to help prevent rounding up. Steering required manually holding the Monitor’s vane as a sort of vertical tiller.

A stiff breeze blew from the NW allowing us to average 4-5 knots combined with motoring. In the pre-dawn of November 12th, the engine stopped abruptly with a terrifying bang. A loose line had wrapped around the prop. Proceeding under headsail alone made keeping our course more difficult. Westerly winds increased to 30 knots causing confused seas, making it impossible to dive on the prop to untangle the sheet. Des, from Russell Radio, suggested trying to unwind the mess from inside; I used a pipe wrench to turn the propeller shaft in reverse while Jerry laboriously cranked in the line on a winch. Thankfully, it worked and we were back in business, motor-sailing into near-gale conditions.

HP had reached Opua and John organized a meeting of locals and cruisers at the Boathouse to determine how best to help us. Jim Ashby, a local boatyard owner, volunteered to to take his trawler, Olga, out to tow us in. There was a tremendous show of hands for volunteers to assist as crew. By afternoon, cold, exhausted, and discouraged at not being able to tack into the Bay of Islands, only 18 miles away, we beheld a beautiful vision appear on the crest of a swell. It was Olga and her crew plowing through rough seas straight for us. As she circled us her stern rose violently out of the water, the 3-foot prop shaft exposed. It took several attempts to bring the towline on board and secure it. Jerry then spent 30 minutes at the head of our 6-foot bowsprit, crashing through green water as he lashed towels around the line to prevent chafe.

Released at last from the chore of steering, we relaxed and left the driving to Olga. We stumbled down the companionway steps, ate a quick meal, and passed out, oblivious to the jolting ride. Awaking at dusk, we poked our heads out the door. Land! Cape Brett lay to port. What a beautiful sight. At 2330 on November 12th, we picked up a mooring in the calm bay off Opua. God had led us to safety. We thanked Him and all those involved in our rescue. Then headed toward a long, deep sleep for the first time in four nights. We wouldn’t think about building a new rudder for a few days—one we could trust.

Opua, Bay of Islands



God brought us to this safe harbor, and through this and every storm that has and will come our way. He provides endurance, courage, and refuge for our country and the rest of the world during the current pandemic. And He will guide us to find the good in the midst of chaos, suffering, and trials.




















































